Yes, I cried today
The sun hasn’t felt this warm since
I was last in love
Yes, I cried today
The sun hasn’t felt this warm since
I was last in love
The “hands off” sign has made you more exotic and my
loneliness has only sparked my
craving to be touched
And I’ve just been blind all along
Fatally distracted and chased by boys sparkling with
effervescent toxicity
like poison to an open wound or a sirens call
You are an ocean
Recklessly crashing into rocky coasts
wild waves keeping me on my toes
powerful currents inevitably pulling me
out to you
If love were always fine and clear,
I’d give it all to have you near
For every flower, twirl and kiss,
I’d have your there upon my lips
For every body you’ve caressed,
My love for you I would confess
If loving you were not so free,
I’d give you all to be with me.
If all the rivers flowed to you,
I would so quickly grab my tube,
To ride the current, rapids and all
Eagerly awaiting you after the falls
Arms outstretched and reaching to you
No one said you’d be reaching too,
Falling fast you catch my hand
Pulling me up and on to land
We catch our breath nearby on a stump
Then laugh, grab hands and run
And jump!
You’ve been sleeping in my head
Taking up a corner of my brain
Always there, lingering
Pulling at my thoughts
Occasionally you wander into my
Dreams and we float
Together, falling
I wake up believing
It were real, still falling
That with hope a fragment
Of me sits in a corner of
Your brain,
Taking up space and pulling at your thoughts
I’ve drifted around
collecting the pieces
in late night drives and
drunken sprawls
with strangers
filling the void
with meaningless mess
scraping
the bottom of my heart
for any remaining sweetness, I come up
empty
I gave it all away, hoping you’d return
my love
Instead my well ran dry and
you left
when you were full
Something got blocked up inside me this morning
As I went to breathe
I felt a resistance in my chest
It snapped at my mother while making my coffee
Stirring sweetener into the black drink
Currently reflecting my state of mind
I hoped it would lighten up a bit
Sluggishly moving my limbs to do what I wanted
It didn’t shake the blockage within
On my drive to work I played loving music
Whispering to the darkness
It’s ok little one
It will be brighter tomorrow
Heart throbbing
Hands shaking
Sweat seeping from my pores
Heavy breaths blow past my neck
Sweeping me away to other worlds
Steady hands healing my wounds
Falling deeper with each brush on my skin
Determined stare grabbing at my hips
Deeper eyes would drown me
Let me twirl in the heat between us
For I would give it all
Be sure
There is far to go
You appeared suddenly
Like a mirage.
You consumed the space around me until I couldn’t see through
Like fog, dense in my chest and vision
You became the air I breathed
The intoxication was warm and addictive.
As suddenly as you materialized, you left
The apparition was gone
And I was left gasping for the air you breathed into me.
Like home
Sitting next to you is that warm full feeling of loving and being loved
We do that for each other
Talking with you is like breathing
Deep slow breaths filled with the cold fresh air of December
I know you infinitely as one does their own heart
You belong to someone else or nobody
But I do not wish to claim or take ownership
Only that we continue to sit beside each other
Loving and being loved
Like asteriods colliding,
unexpectedly creating a new world.
Being detroyed and made new all at once.
My heart shakes with anticipation and fullness,
heavy with the being of you.
Dizzy with attraction.
You are the first to look at me
like I am the sun.
Powerful, blinding, and beautiful.
Radiating and magnetic.
I have opened a door to the rest of my life.
Endless possibilities laid out before me,
all I have to do is take your hand.
First an urge
Not quite a fully formed thought
A longing,
Pulling my subconscious.
All the little holes left by past heartbreaks
Reached out
to be momentarily filled by you.
Willingly you obliged
Drenched in your wholeness
I felt calm and full.
Like the tide,
you eventually rolled back out to the sea.
The next tide will bring a new longing.
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