I’ve drifted around
collecting the pieces
in late night drives and
drunken sprawls
with strangers
filling the void
with meaningless mess
scraping
the bottom of my heart
for any remaining sweetness, I come up
empty
I gave it all away, hoping you’d return
my love
Instead my well ran dry and
you left
when you were full
Something got blocked up inside me this morning
As I went to breathe
I felt a resistance in my chest
It snapped at my mother while making my coffee
Stirring sweetener into the black drink
Currently reflecting my state of mind
I hoped it would lighten up a bit
Sluggishly moving my limbs to do what I wanted
It didn’t shake the blockage within
On my drive to work I played loving music
Whispering to the darkness
It’s ok little one
It will be brighter tomorrow
Heart throbbing
Hands shaking
Sweat seeping from my pores
Heavy breaths blow past my neck
Sweeping me away to other worlds
Steady hands healing my wounds
Falling deeper with each brush on my skin
Determined stare grabbing at my hips
Deeper eyes would drown me
Let me twirl in the heat between us
For I would give it all
Be sure
There is far to go
You appeared suddenly
Like a mirage.
You consumed the space around me until I couldn’t see through
Like fog, dense in my chest and vision
You became the air I breathed
The intoxication was warm and addictive.
As suddenly as you materialized, you left
The apparition was gone
And I was left gasping for the air you breathed into me.
The Gap 